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09:49 pm
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djsgn?
was told to use this thing
so i guess i will
okay so this weekend blu alot
walking in the rain
kinda drunk
then rob driving home drunk
i was so scared
saturday wasnt that bad, drinking, movies, poon hehe
t'was nice
same thing today
until he drove me home and i was bored
i hate it when he c alls to late and hes all tired and doesnt say anything on the phone
it sucks
but what can you do
i miss you sarah
i miss you devon
and i wish my kitty was sitting beside me
i cant wait till next weekend
i love sharing the bed with someone special
Current Mood:  good
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07:51 pm
[Link] | So.. i think Im in love
ahh it feels so great to have someone there for you
that cares for you as much as they care for themselves
He went and saw tool the other day and didnt bring his cell with him so the next day
when i was expecting a call. it never came, and sometimes caring about someone that much freaks me out
i thought he was dead... i get too paranoid at times
I miss my mommy, she has something to tell me
and i hope its not bad
she didnt call me for 3 days and i thought she was dead.. i really hate that feeling
i would call Lee's pleace everyday looking for her
and he didnt know where she was
she called rob's cell yesterday so i know shes okay
im so happy i have her
I still need coverup
its driving me nuts
i found some old coverup laying around
it seems to work fine for now
I MISS YOU SO MUCH JULIE, I LOVE YOU BABY<333
i wish she'd come back
i had to hear the news one night drunk with alisha
didnt really think of it at first but later that night
it hit me and i was running down the middle of the road screaming and crying
it was kinda nice tho. i could tell it was building up
i love how much alisha and maggie were there for me
i just wish i had amanda right now i miss her so much too.
so im going to my lovers house tonight<3
sorry alisha that i hang out with him so much
you know how it is.. i still wanna hang out with you
but when you say you'll "call back"
you never do :(
But ill phone you tomorrow <3
i love you mommy
Current Mood: satisfied
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10:11 pm
[Link] | Right now
all i need is 80's heavy metal
beaverdell
cider
sarah
cara
danielle
myk
beer would be nice
and money, im running out of coverup
shit, now they can all see the hidiousness that lies beneath
lets see
yesterday i sat at home all day after a weird encounter at the doctors
they freak me out
then i bought some cd's and a dvd
today i babysat for 9 hours ughg
monday i...
... went to steves
went to the ghetto park
went to the docs
then to jeremys and drank with everyone
saw lee and matt
was great.. but chuck kept on bugging me saying that me and matt were dating
been there.. done that
no thanks
haha
sunday and saturday i sat at home freaking out
i think my house is haunted
friday sarah came out it was awesome
kinda sucked till we got alcohol tho
then everything felt right
and before that
i have no idea...
i need to stop drinking
Current Mood: content
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07:27 pm
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Yeehaw
Yo, whoa a fly just touched me
nasty
i havent been on here in soo long
its sarahs fault
she told me my username so i went on
so yeah
summers boring
i need more booze
and i need sarah to come see me
natalie and sabrina came
it was fun
and tuesday im gonna go see jodi
heck yes
and then on the 22 im going to go see dillie
with rory
haha
and im taking a plane and ive enevr been on a plane so im scared
i dyed my hair the other day
its pretty, blonde and pink
ahh i keep on thinking this stupid fly is on me somwhere
i cant wait till dinner
i hope its chicken
Current Mood:  giggly
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07:49 pm
[Link] | Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you bad
But I did it anyway
And then maybe
Some would say your life was sad
But you lived it anyway
And so maybe
Your friends they stand around they watch you crumble
As you fall down to the ground
And then someday
Your friends they stand beside as you were flying
Oh you were flying oh so high
But then someday people look at you for what they call their own
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hear you calling home
And then some day we could take our time
To brush the leaves aside so you can reach us
But you left me far behind
Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Current Mood:  drained
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08:59 pm
[Link] | so this is nice
some of the people who i hated
and someone who i thought hated me
are all friends now
its happy
and hopefully im going to see one fo them tomorrow
<33
so many people have quit doing drugs
im soo proud of them =)
and yet theres still the one person who i wish would stop the most
i wish that she would call me
stop living in a hotel with a herion addict
most likly doing it herself
and crack..but she lies
all the time to me about how she doesnt do that
only "once in a blue moon"
i hope she stops drinking
stops smoking
finds a place to live
stops being a coward
and actually starts acting like a mother for once
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10:10 pm
[Link] | i keep on loving her more and more each day
amanda!!!<333
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01:07 pm
[Link] | last night was horrible
night before...was good with melissa
night befroe foreeee was alos good with measha and i forget the rest
im so tired
i need to go see my kitty nad sleep
Current Mood: crappy
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07:12 pm
[Link] | do you think that i would call just to hear you breathe?
well duh ilu<3
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05:03 pm
[Link] | so yeah
this whole week ive been super excited cause im going to a show on saturday
and i was going to stay at jodis
but now plans have suddenly changed
and jodi can only have one night of a sleepober thing
so its now friday and not saturday cause measha has plans with people
fuck i am so upset now
i doubt measha gonna wanna chnage her plans so i can go to that show
shes seems mad at me or sumthing
i dont know what it is
i really wanna go to that show
and if i cant then my whole weekend will be ruined
=(
siigh
Current Mood: crushed
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11:50 am
[Link] | im at school
i should be in communications right now
but im done everything
its such an easy class =)
i dont even know why im in easy english?
i passes last year..im really good in english
some people are also wondering why im in easy math
im bad at math
but this math..omg..so freakin easy x8923795486
it feels like im in gr 6 or sumthing
hopefullly i cna go to jodis for the whole weekend
and hopefully measha goes to that show with me
i really wanna hang out with matt
but if i go alone..ill be soo bored when hes playing..and ill look like a lonely fool
and ill have to find my way back to the bus stop by meyself =(
i cant wait to see my jodi
=D
my hair feels really gross
and i keep on looking behind me to see if the librarian is paying attention to what im doing
or if someones reading this
in science i have to learn abut earthquakes again
ahh there so scary :(
im paranoid
CANT WAIT TILL SATURDAY =D =D
Current Mood: ecstatic
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04:22 pm
[Link] | i got a new computer
yaya im so excited
and its so much faster than my old one
now i just need speakers
anyone got n e they dont need?
Current Mood: good
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08:47 pm
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=)
so right now im watching the O C cause im cool like yeah
while im drinking mango peach orange juice
so school again, ugh.
well yesterday really sucked
all my classes were fucked up
the councellors wouldnt fix my skedual
no one good was in my english class
and when i got home i hear i owe the school 35 dolloars and i left my buss pass there :(
they screwed up so bad
i dont owe them 35 dollars...what idiots
so yeah theres soo many little grade nines that their expecting the gr 11's and 12's to share lockers
oh well me and nicole were planning on it anyways
and im getting soo many little kids coming up to me going "omg i looovve you hair..how did u do that?, wow your soo cool!!"
eeehhhehe?
i had to repeat my self 3 times yesterday about how i did my hair
anywho
today was much better
my classes are fixed even tho i had to wait an hour just to fix them
i have math 11 essentials (yaya easy math)
Drama 11
science 10 cor
(yeah i failed)
and english 11
Brittanys in my english class so now i wont be so loney and uncomfortable with all the loser jock heads that think i look like a clown
i cant wait for tomorrow
JODI AND MEASHA AND SHEALENE NIGHT :D
slumber party
i love jodi <3333
ps- kelly when u come back call me please?
i love you lots!!! get my number from kristina or jill
Current Mood: satisfied
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10:29 pm
[Link] | why am i always in a fight with someone
gawd, i hate fighting with people..and trying to explain myself over and over..whatever they obviously dont care my side of the story
so jodis coming over tomorrow night :)
and that should be fun
i <3 her soo much
coolest person i have met in a long long time
althought she has bad taste is guys
like rory
disgusting...ugh
anywho, im here downstairs in her house by myself
shes upstairs having a bath and hollies sleeping
so hmm, what to say
i miss kelly
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01:05 am
[Link] | ugh, im horrible with putting colours together
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