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Mon, 11 Sep 2006 04:51:35 GMT

was told to use this thing
so i guess i will

okay so this weekend blu alot
walking in the rain
kinda drunk
then rob driving home drunk
i was so scared

saturday wasnt that bad, drinking, movies, poon hehe
t'was nice
same thing today
until he drove me home and i was bored

i hate it when he c alls to late and hes all tired and doesnt say anything on the phone
it sucks
but what can you do

i miss you sarah
i miss you devon
and i wish my kitty was sitting beside me

i cant wait till next weekend
i love sharing the bed with someone special

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 02:57:21 GMT

So.. i think Im in love
ahh it feels so great to have someone there for you
that cares for you as much as they care for themselves

He went and saw tool the other day and didnt bring his cell with him so the next day
when i was expecting a call. it never came, and sometimes caring about someone that much freaks me out
i thought he was dead... i get too paranoid at times

I miss my mommy, she has something to tell me
and i hope its not bad
she didnt call me for 3 days and i thought she was dead.. i really hate that feeling
i would call Lee's pleace everyday looking for her
and he didnt know where she was

she called rob's cell yesterday so i know shes okay
im so happy i have her

I still need coverup
its driving me nuts
i found some old coverup laying around
it seems to work fine for now

I MISS YOU SO MUCH JULIE, I LOVE YOU BABY<333
i wish she'd come back

i had to hear the news one night drunk with alisha
didnt really think of it at first but later that night
it hit me and i was running down the middle of the road screaming and crying
it was kinda nice tho. i could tell it was building up
i love how much alisha and maggie were there for me
i just wish i had amanda right now i miss her so much too.

so im going to my lovers house tonight<3
sorry alisha that i hang out with him so much
you know how it is.. i still wanna hang out with you
but when you say you'll "call back"
you never do :(
But ill phone you tomorrow <3

i love you mommy

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 05:16:20 GMT

Right now
all i need is 80's heavy metal
beaverdell
cider
sarah
cara
danielle
myk
beer would be nice
and money, im running out of coverup
shit, now they can all see the hidiousness that lies beneath

lets see
yesterday i sat at home all day after a weird encounter at the doctors
they freak me out
then i bought some cd's and a dvd

today i babysat for 9 hours ughg

monday i...
... went to steves
went to the ghetto park
went to the docs
then to jeremys and drank with everyone
saw lee and matt
was great.. but chuck kept on bugging me saying that me and matt were dating
been there.. done that
no thanks
haha

sunday and saturday i sat at home freaking out
i think my house is haunted

friday sarah came out it was awesome
kinda sucked till we got alcohol tho
then everything felt right

and before that
i have no idea...

i need to stop drinking

Yeehaw

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 02:30:01 GMT

Yo, whoa a fly just touched me
nasty
i havent been on here in soo long
its sarahs fault
she told me my username so i went on

so yeah
summers boring
i need more booze
and i need sarah to come see me

natalie and sabrina came
it was fun

and tuesday im gonna go see jodi
heck yes
and then on the 22 im going to go see dillie
with rory
haha
and im taking a plane and ive enevr been on a plane so im scared

i dyed my hair the other day
its pretty, blonde and pink

ahh i keep on thinking this stupid fly is on me somwhere

i cant wait till dinner
i hope its chicken

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 03:54:19 GMT

Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you bad
But I did it anyway
And then maybe
Some would say your life was sad
But you lived it anyway
And so maybe
Your friends they stand around they watch you crumble
As you fall down to the ground
And then someday
Your friends they stand beside as you were flying
Oh you were flying oh so high
But then someday people look at you for what they call their own
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hear you calling home
And then some day we could take our time
To brush the leaves aside so you can reach us
But you left me far behind

Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 05:00:56 GMT

so this is nice
some of the people who i hated
and someone who i thought hated me
are all friends now
its happy
and hopefully im going to see one fo them tomorrow
<33
so many people have quit doing drugs
im soo proud of them =)

and yet theres still the one person who i wish would stop the most

i wish that she would call me
stop living in a hotel with a herion addict
most likly doing it herself
and crack..but she lies
all the time to me about how she doesnt do that
only "once in a blue moon"
i hope she stops drinking
stops smoking
finds a place to live
stops being a coward
and actually starts acting like a mother for once

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 06:08:56 GMT

i keep on loving her more and more each day

amanda!!!<333

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 20:08:47 GMT

last night was horrible
night before...was good with melissa
night befroe foreeee was alos good with measha and i forget the rest
im so tired

i need to go see my kitty nad sleep

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 02:12:46 GMT

do you think that i would call just to hear you breathe?

well duh ilu<3

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 00:05:49 GMT

so yeah
this whole week ive been super excited cause im going to a show on saturday
and i was going to stay at jodis
but now plans have suddenly changed
and jodi can only have one night of a sleepober thing
so its now friday and not saturday cause measha has plans with people
fuck i am so upset now
i doubt measha gonna wanna chnage her plans so i can go to that show
shes seems mad at me or sumthing
i dont know what it is

i really wanna go to that show
and if i cant then my whole weekend will be ruined
=(

siigh

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 18:55:56 GMT

im at school
i should be in communications right now
but im done everything
its such an easy class =)
i dont even know why im in easy english?
i passes last year..im really good in english

some people are also wondering why im in easy math
im bad at math
but this math..omg..so freakin easy x8923795486
it feels like im in gr 6 or sumthing

hopefullly i cna go to jodis for the whole weekend
and hopefully measha goes to that show with me
i really wanna hang out with matt
but if i go alone..ill be soo bored when hes playing..and ill look like a lonely fool
and ill have to find my way back to the bus stop by meyself =(

i cant wait to see my jodi
=D

my hair feels really gross
and i keep on looking behind me to see if the librarian is paying attention to what im doing
or if someones reading this

in science i have to learn abut earthquakes again
ahh there so scary :(
im paranoid

CANT WAIT TILL SATURDAY =D =D

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 23:23:37 GMT

i got a new computer
yaya im so excited
and its so much faster than my old one

now i just need speakers
anyone got n e they dont need?

=)

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 03:55:24 GMT

so right now im watching the O C cause im cool like yeah
while im drinking mango peach orange juice

so school again, ugh.
well yesterday really sucked
all my classes were fucked up
the councellors wouldnt fix my skedual
no one good was in my english class
and when i got home i hear i owe the school 35 dolloars and i left my buss pass there :(

they screwed up so bad
i dont owe them 35 dollars...what idiots

so yeah theres soo many little grade nines that their expecting the gr 11's and 12's to share lockers
oh well me and nicole were planning on it anyways
and im getting soo many little kids coming up to me going "omg i looovve you hair..how did u do that?, wow your soo cool!!"

eeehhhehe?
i had to repeat my self 3 times yesterday about how i did my hair

anywho
today was much better
my classes are fixed even tho i had to wait an hour just to fix them
i have math 11 essentials (yaya easy math)
Drama 11
science 10 cor
(yeah i failed)
and english 11
Brittanys in my english class so now i wont be so loney and uncomfortable with all the loser jock heads that think i look like a clown

i cant wait for tomorrow
JODI AND MEASHA AND SHEALENE NIGHT :D
slumber party
i love jodi <3333

ps- kelly when u come back call me please?
i love you lots!!! get my number from kristina or jill

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 05:32:47 GMT

why am i always in a fight with someone
gawd, i hate fighting with people..and trying to explain myself over and over..whatever they obviously dont care my side of the story

so jodis coming over tomorrow night :)
and that should be fun
i <3 her soo much
coolest person i have met in a long long time
althought she has bad taste is guys
like rory
disgusting...ugh
anywho, im here downstairs in her house by myself
shes upstairs having a bath and hollies sleeping
so hmm, what to say
i miss kelly

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 08:05:48 GMT

ugh, im horrible with putting colours together

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 02:31:44 GMT

this time ill be nervous cause i can see you hands in front of me in front of me tonight

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 20:07:32 GMT

at jodis again
went to s how last night with measha
it was good, except for he whole walking part.
i hurt so bad waiting for the bus
im fine now..but my bag is super super heavy..so it sucked carring around everywhere
jodis watching little kid shows again
and im talking to this amanda girl hat i met, shes pretty cool
and ..today i have to go home and weeeee
get to see my kitty :)

hurray

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:11:46 GMT

gawd i hate waiting for my mother to show up
shes always late and when she shows up she usually says
"oh im sorry but i dont have enuf money for your ______(whatever im getting at the time)"
once she was 3 hours late, she thought it was okay because i was "with friends"
does she really think i want to be sitting in front of mcdonalds for 3 hours waiting for her...
and everytime i call her she says shell be there in like 20 mins...and when she did show up she was drunk
YAY!!
so i made her spend alot of money on me....more than she was sappost to but i was mad

so yeah im at jodi's right now and shes watching clifford the big red dog
haha

i got new shoes cause my other ones were soo wrecked..i really wanted leather skull ones but there were too expensive for my mom to afford, so i got stripped convers..there not bad.
mmmmmmmmm wheat thins are soo good
i have 2 beers left from last night....i need something to do tonight

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 21:09:12 GMT

so yeah im still at jodis and im listening to poison the well for the first time
and..i like them
there tres good
..jodis shower is insane it like try to rip of your skin its so ...strong...? i dont know what word to use
but yeah, she has so many shampoos to choose from
it was exciting
i used them allll :)
mmm nice hair..yay
i wish sarah was back i miss her
and and and, im not sure
school..damnit i want to kill school..we should only have like 6 months school and 6 months freedom
yes!
SHIFT ONE
haha...

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 04:29:41 GMT

IM AT JODIS AND I LOVE HER MORE

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 04:59:32 GMT

werd to me im talking to clair i love her
:D
she lives in salt spring
AND IM GOING THERE TOMORROOOWWW!!! =D =D
yayayayayay :)
i hope i get to see aaron tomorrow, soo pretty x 10..he has tendinitis (sp?) he plays the gee tar too much, thats what the doctors say ne ways.
im so excited for tomorrow
just hope that my dad gives me enug money
the ferrie there is like 7.50$ now..last summer it was 6.50..i think

right now im watching this weird show where this chick becomes a writer and shes ugly..and they give her a makeover and she becomes pretty and bitchy..very stereo typical type of movie, there are so many movies out there like this one only..there not a writer...but yeah, its lame
and my back hurts, i really think i should get off this computer that ive been on for the last 5 hours?
im home right now and im never home, got here and my dad was drunk..yippy...
so i had to act EXTRA nice about EVERYTHING so he wouldnt get a little mad, like he always does
my step mothers actually is being nice to me..good thing the dishwasher did have to be emptied tonight...ehh
omg theres so many gay people in this movie i love it, there complaining about a straight guy ...saying that he looks gay..but isnt and there confused
so..yeah
went to michelle's coming back party, which in like 10 mins turned into a beacon party
it wasnt bad....was alot of people there that i dont really like at all
like dean ..ugh.
i really dont like beacon parties as much as i used to
i like lydia parties..but the last one kinda made things weird between some people, which really really sucks.
sumwhat

but im going to stop blabbering and ..... i donno?

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 01:37:19 GMT

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet travcorp? on a bus..thought he was harry potter
2.~What would you do if you had never met dipstool? um i think i'd cry..shes rad
3.~What do you honestly think of cryindrunk? that shes the most beautiful person ever..serriously i love fiona
4.~Would or did triscuitbox and wearealldamaged go out? HAHAH no..and no
5.~Have you ever liked xmethedrinex? as a friend..shes like the best
6.~If picklehammer died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? that hes the prettiest boy ever..and he cant have my shirt
7.~Would katpoo and the_mighty_het make a good couple? NOOO WAAAYY
8.~Describe stedric in 3 words: tall..pretty hair that smells nice..thats 3 words right?
9.~Do you think electricgirls is hot? duh who doesnt?
10.~Would picklehammer and retinalshock make a lovely couple? yes but shes mine
11.~What do you think of when you see wearealldamaged? milhouse
12.~Tell me something humiliating about the_mighty_het: he dated zea
13.~Do you know any of crispycracker's family members? yeah
14.~What's the_mighty_het's favorite color? black
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is ninreference? 2..aha jk..maybe a 7?
16.~What would you do if lonelyxsoul just professed their undying love for you? i think i'd cry and ..run into a closet with her ;)
17.~What language does triscuitbox speak? english and probably more
18.~Who is suckerlove__ going out with? no one i dont think...wait..i donnoo?
19.~Is starttheshxw a boy or a girl? boy..duh haha girl
20.~Would neonpixie and lonelyxsoul make a good couple? no..no god no
21.~Who do you think meltonme would be great with from this list? me, duh
22.~When was the last time you talked to electricgirls? um...like a couple days ago
23.~What is xmethedrinex's favorite band? i donno she has lots
24.~Does katpoo have any siblings? yes
25.~Would you ever date crispycracker? yes
26.~Would you ever date stedric? no..
27.~Is meltonme single? yeah i think so..why shes mine?
28.~What is the_mighty_het's last name? backlund..cant spell
29.~What is neonpixie's middle name? i donno
30~What is cryindrunk's fantasy? not sure?
31.~Where does starttheshxw live? in sooke
32.~Would you make out with travcorp? no..eww
33.~Are dipstool and crispycracker best friends? yeah actually
34.~Does stedric like the_mighty_het? haha i hope so
35.~How did you meet neonpixie? at school
36.~Is electricgirls older than you? nope
37.~Is retinalshock the sexiest person alive? YES OMG YES I LOVE LYDIA

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 18:20:57 GMT

wow..ive been up since 6:30 this morning
and ive only had like 2 hours sleep
im not even tired
ive been at kateys for the last 2 days
yesterrday she flushed my contacts down the drain cause she thought that there was just cups of water....nope those were my contacts
they were in cups because i forgot my contact holders at kristinas
so now i look like a nerd with glasses :D

yay

ba bo blah

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 09:25:03 GMT

my back hurtss sooo muchhhh
and it started hurting after i ate a hotdog

ouchie
and my contacts are acxting up again
*tear*?

complain complain complain

EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 18:52:54 GMT

i get to hang out with the most gorgeous boy alive today

go me